I just cannot change.

It really bothers me when I’m underestimated.

I may not be as intelligent as people may think, but I know for sure I’m not as dumb as it seems. Sometimes the ditsy girl of me comes out, it’s uncontrollable and it’s there, but I secretly try to hide it.

I’m not booksmart. However I work very hard to get the grades I get. I invest so much time and I hope to get the grades I deserve. I always try to keep a positive attitude towards nursing school. Because you have to mentally prepare yourself just to survive and make it through. Unfortunately, there are nights where I want to give up. Bags under my eyes, grey hair and wrinkles are forming, migraines are occurring due to lack of sleep, and the worst of me comes out. I just to have to suck it in and deal with it.

I know I am a horrible driver. I try to avoid driving as much as possible. I know I am constantly criticized of how I drive, but I personally do not care. I attempted to change and get better by focusing on how I’m driving. Then I realize that I’m putting way too much energy on how I drive more than just simply focusing on the rode.

I am not materialistic as it seems. Yes I like stuff, they are nice. But all they do is temporarily make me feel pretty and make my life a little bit more convenient. I would rather just spend time with you. I would give up my stuff to have someone special to spend time with. That is what matters more to me.